Lively Sensations

I was away from all my journals for over a year. Master and I did a LOT if talking in that time, but as our schedules got crazier about mid year (new job for him, online college for me, toddler getting more active and pottytraining) we drifted away from long discussions as well.  I have started posting regularly in 2 blogs and why not add LJ to the mix.

My blogs are are:

• Sweet Submissions : Things Master wants me to write about and journal prompts from Luna at Sensual Service, all relating to the M/s and BDSM dynamic
• Sweet's Training : Lessons from Mistress Abernathy's Erotic Slavehood Training Guide, and other lesson;s Master is teaching me.
• When there's nothing else to do : All Vanilla blog on MySpace (with subtle hints, lol) if you care about my random babble about general nothingness. I raraly write in this. MAYBE once a month.
• Lively Sensations : Of course, last but not least my LJ. This one is just ramblings of a slave who needs to babble. I have free reign over this blog as long as it is respectful.

That said...

I do miss the few people I was in contact with on LJ, and I hope you are still keeping track of me so we can get in contact again.

Sincerely,
z3r0z_sw33t 


P.S. for those in the dynamic that might question my formal type. I do have His permission to type in proper grammar, including capitalizations, unless using His name or title. As a college student online, persuing a legal degree, doing a LOT of writing, it was entiely to difficult to switch gears between the 2 styles, producing errors in my classwork.  As we have set a high goal for my grades, it was in my better interest to do so.

and earned my collar!! i know i am unworthy to boast, but being told i could not have it was devastating, and tonight, without warning, master walked behind me and placed it upon my neck. All i could do was bow my head and try not to cry (didn't work).  i know that many collarings are ceremonial, or at least scened, but just hearing "you have done well" from his lips was all i needed!

Thank You, Master

humbly behind you,
sweet 

ps.. i know my page went from dark & dreadful to all perky and seasonal.. i'm in a girly mood tonight, lol!

i have recently found new friends in the bdsm world, thank you sisters. i just wanted to leave a short note to say i will try to post in my LJ more often so my new friends can read more of my trials... I have another journal here if you feel i've neglected LJ too long check there and poke me :)

i have displeased Master greatly in doing this the past 2-3 days. i cannot give a valid reason, and Master has taken the harshest punishmet i can imagine. i have been denied the braided cable choker that suffices for my daily collar.  He believes (rightly) that i have had much behavior unbefitting a slave, and that while i am still in his service, i must earn my collar again.  i have no reason why i am feelling utterly defiant. i do know it has to stop. i never want to feel this level of disappointment in myself again. i never want HIM to feel it again.

Masterdid today allow/suggest that i join a local friend with a vanilla friend. She knows of our lifestyle, and also knows that i have an attitude to work off. Master has given me a time of two weeks to earm my collar by controllong these urges, or truly face His wrath. my hope is to work myself silly at the gym and be too tired to be so bratty and defiant.

i haven't had a chance to post much about our alternative lifestyles. BDSM is only one of them, but it will be the main one posted about in this blog. Here is a little back ground, starting back before i met my husband and Master.

He is currently on the search for a permanent daily collar for me.

I never dreamed we could live this lifestyle 24/7, but I see now that it does not have to affect our children. All sexual aspects of our 'normal' life are kept in the bedroom and away from our children, and so is this. What my children will see is an obedient, loving wife and mother and a loving, caring, gentle father and husband. What could possibly be wrong with that? In our daily activities (child discipline, bills, work, etc) we are equals, and that is also how our children see us. Being a 24/7 submissive does NOT have to hurt my children or my life. And if that strong, disobedient woman sneaks out, He will let me work it out of my system... then i'll have another lesson...

Sapiosexuality is defined in the sapiosexual comminuty and in wolfieboy's livejournal as:

"Me? I don't care too much about the plumbing. I want an incisive, inquisitive, insightful, irreverent mind. I want someone for whom philosophical discussion is foreplay. I want someone who sometimes makes me go ouch due to their wit and evil sense of humor. I want someone that I can reach out and touch randomly. I want someone I can cuddle with.

I decided all that means that I am sapiosexual. I want to fuck with peoples minds. :)

I invented this term while on too little sleep driving up from SF in the summer of '98 and I'm trying to propagate it as much as possible. So please use it when appropriate...

But where's the gender in all that? That people that I find like that also happen to have marvelous, wonderful bodies happens to be a perq. Flesh is fun..."

And the Urban Dictionary defines it as:

To become attracted to or sexually aroused by intelligence and its use.

Or as in the one quote my husband picked out... " I like to fuck with people's minds.."

Quite a feat for a simple word made up trying to describe one's sexual preferenses, but upon seeing the defining terms, I must wholly agree. 

JMHO,

sw33t